One Question

I don't know if I should write this or not but maybe for now I want to write it.

One day, in the middle of my conversation with Surya ex-girlfriend (I call her Dek Nisa - psychology student), I tell her my nightmare.

"Adek, I dream about him (my ex - okay, maybe not my ex but he is someone who ever come to my life) last night and I don't know why I could dream about him. I always think that when I dream about someone it means that he miss me. But I think it's not true. For this time he might not be missed me."

"Do you often dream about him?"

Stop Bullying!

“Dasar gendut!”

“Dasar jelek!”

“Dasar anak orang miskin!”

“Nggak usah jadi temen dia aja! Dia itu orangnya bla bla bla…”

Pernah denger kalimat seperti itu? Pernah dikatain kaya gitu? Atau kamu pernah nge-bully temen kamu?

Source: http://childrensbooksguide.com/bullying

Pada saat gue kelas  satu SD, gue sering dikatain “gendut”. Dan pada kenyataannya emang gue gendut pada saat itu. Gue menduduki posisi orang tergendut nomer dua setelah temen gue. Beda sama gue yang lama kelamaan kurus dengan sendirinya tanpa ada diet sama sekali, temen gue badannya tetep subur sampai saat ini. Pada saat gue dikatain “gendut” pada saat itu, gue cuek aja. Toh emang gue gendut. Tapi harus gitu banget ya sama orang gendut? Sampai dikata-katain gitu? Saat itu, gue nggak tahu kalau itu salah satu bentuk “bullying”. Lama kelamaan hal itu berhenti dengan sendirinya seiring dengan berat badan gue yang semakin menyusut.

Goosebumps

Life is like a Goosebumps. Menurutku seperti itu.

Tahu Goosebumps yang aku maksud? Goosebumps yang aku maksud di sini adalah buku serial karangan RL Stine. Iya walaupun ini adalah novel horor dan FYI aja aku nggak begitu suka film atau novel horor (penakut, iya, gue penakut), tapi sepertinya ada korelasi antara beberapa seri novel ini dengan kehidupan kita.

Beberapa seri novel Goosebumps mengharuskan kita untuk memilih. Apabila memilih A kita menuju halaman sekian dan apabila memilih B kita menuju halaman sekian. Begitu seterusnya sampai akhirnya kita sampai di kata 'tamat'. Dan selalu saja, aku nggak pernah bisa sampai dihalaman akhir. Pasti ditengah-tengah udah mentok aja, gitu.

Begitu juga hidup ini kan? Kita pilih A atau B pasti ada konsekuensi masing-masing. Coba deh bayangin kalau kita tau apa konsekuensi yang harus kita peroleh saat kita milih A atau B, dan kita bisa kembali lagi ke page sebelumnya untuk reselect. Mungkin hidup nggak akan semistery ini.

Jadi ingat kata seseorang,

Ya, begitulah hidup. Samar dan penuh ketidakpastian. Jadi, keajaiban itu mungkin dan seringkali terjadi kan? :)

Divergent

Entahlah. Gue jatuh cinta sama film yang dibintangi Shailene Woodley (yang kalo dilihat-lihat mirip Alessia Cestaro) sama Theo James ini. Gue langsung jatuh cinta sama sesosok Four begitu pertama dia muncul. Like a real man. Beruntunglah Tris yang mempunyai Four, a man who always by her side, no matter what happens.

22!

Alhamdulillah. Thanks Allah for everything.

Thank you mommy, daddy, sista for always by my side and always give me a support no matter what happens. Thank you Adinda Gadis for your call. One hour conversation that means a lot for me. Thank you Eva Sofiana for always be a good friend (or a best friend?). Thank you Fitri Nur Soraya for the friendship that has more than eight years. Thank you Hemas Prabawati to always give positive influence to me. Thank you Satya Manggala a.k.a Gibul who always lent an ear to listen to my sighing. Thank you M. Ekananda Yudha Kusuma Jati for always be my best brother. And last but not least,thank you to all my friend who sent texts over the birthday!

Joesonghabnida 21. I always try my best to make you happy but I always fail. Believe in me, all your hard work will paid off. I don't want to give up. I will always try, and try, and try. Although this is my hardest times and I have to fight alone but I believe I'll succeed. I promise.

Present from my beloved sista

Yeah,
We're happy, free , confused, and lonely at the same time
It's miserable and magical.
Oh, yeah
Tonight's the night when we forget about the deadlines
It's time

Oh oh!
I don't know about you
But I'm feeling 22
Everything will be alright
If you keep me next to you
You don't know about me
But I'll bet you want to
Everything will be alright
If we just keep dancing like we're
22, ooh-ooh
22, ooh-ooh

22!